The drugs don’t work (Part 2)

by Kirstie
You can read Part 1 in the archives

After the bulimia, drugs, my father leaving home, and being such a failure that I couldn’t even kill myself properly, I met a bunch of sappy wet goody goody girlies. I always viewed myself as above everyone, they were not the sort of people I wanted to

I met a bunch of sappy wet goody goody girlies

be associated with, I may not have had any friends, but if I did I sure did want them to be it! I had many hours of lessons with them, and my opinions of them changed, I saw life in them, passion, and real friendship. They talked to me about Jesus, and for 18 months I laughed at them, picked on them and was generally a meanie to them, but still they talked to me! So they were either freaks like me, or they had something special??

One of them invited me to her baptism, I

Love kinda jumped up and slapped me round the face!

laughed and giggled and told her no chance, I would rather die! And then it hit me, I really would die if I didn't try! So a few days before the event I asked her if I could go, and I went! And, well, I walked into the church and love kinda jumped up and slapped me round the face! I nearly went out for the count, I never had love from home, I never had love from the kids in school, but here were, I dunno, 300 people loving me! And loving each other!

The next week I was invited to a youth outreach called the shed,

I never had love from home...but here were... 300 people loving me!

there I gave my life to Jesus! Telling my mum was the hardest part, I bounced through the front door and grinned and told her "I am a Christian!" And all she did was swear at me, walk out of the room, take the Bible from its usual place and hide it, then she vowed she would not be in church ever and she would not allow me to be baptised. And guess where she was six weeks later?? She was in church at my baptism!!!

 I found it very easy to be a Christian, well, ignoring the fact that suddenly I received a VERY sharp conscience, it was easy! I went into school and cut myself off from those people I had hung around with before, they no longer

I discovered what it felt like to smile

scared me, they no longer had a hold over me! I was freeeee!! I really was a new person over night! I stopped swearing, I stopped doing drugs and all the other things, I discovered what it felt like to smile. And I don't think I have stopped smiling in three years! It has been hard, God walked me through all my experiences and has helped me to sort my head out.

I have many male friends now, I'm not afraid of men any more, I told my mum I was sexually assaulted in the back lane, she screamed at me and told me I was lying. Before that I had told God, and he told me he knew and that he wanted to help me through it and to help me use it to help others. So I'm over it! And I'm helping others try and understand how to cope with it!

Hallelujah that I'm on the road to glory!

 Those sappy wet girls are now my two best friends, without God using them I don't know where I would be! Hallelujah that I'm on the road to glory!