 A long walk
towards God...
by DJ Absolute Abandon
 God & me made direct tangible contact in 1985 while I was
walking through Turkey with a donkey.
My life up until that point evolved around me & my big ego |
There had been other vague communications with God in my life but 1985 was the year I was made to sit up & take notice. My life up until that point evolved around me & my
big ego. But I wasn't satisfied with life. All the things I tried to satisfy my life with were like lumps of wood that kept afloat for awhile but after different lengths of time they sank.
The one bit of wood I really believed would never sink was “travelling around the world for the rest of my life”. This lump of wood promised many
things in my imagination. It was not the first time I had travelled to different countries for decent lengths of time,but those times had been preparing me for doing it full time. It
would be then that I would really find out who I was , without the security of  friends,family & known
things around me. Life would then get exciting , & stay exciting.
So in 1985 after leaving England & travelling down through Europe I was at last doing what I wanted to
I walked about 800 miles, usually sleeping under trees at night |
do. In Southern Italy I decided that destinations did not satisfy. Once I had been in one place for awhile I wanted to move on again. I had a restless spirit. So with this in mind I decided to try & enjoy
the moment by moment experience of travelling & not expect the destination to reward me. The idea I had was to buy a donkey to carry my belongings. My travelling would then slow down to a walking pace. When I
reached Turkey this is what I did. I walked about 800 miles, usually sleeping under trees at night.
The whole futility of life came crashing in on me |
It was while walking through central Turkey I realised that travelling was not going to fulfill my life. It had become futile & I was scared. This lump of wood was
sinking & I had no more lumps of wood left to  try. The whole futility of life came
crashing in on me. I was drowning & I cried out to God. My words were, ' If you're there God ,give me a direction in Turkey ,give me a direction in life & give me a purpose in life
'. After praying that prayer a car with a UK number plate passed me & pulled over further up the road. It was the first UK plate car I had seen in Turkey. I ran up to the car & got talking
with the man inside. I only talked with him for about 10 minutes, but after our meeting I knew I had to start travelling south rather than going east towards Asia. When the man drove off he kept saying God bless you.
It was at this time I just knew God was real |
It was at this time I just knew God was real. This encounter was the wrapping up of key things that had been happening to me over the previous few days & the
wrapping up of key thoughts I had been having also. I could continue to explain the ways that God kept drawing me to himself in Turkey but the depth of what
went on is caught up in Psalm 18 verses 1-6 & 16-19:
I love you, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock, my fortress
and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call to the LORD, who is worthy of praise, and I am saved
from my enemies. The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me. The cords of the grave coiled around me; the snares of death confronted
me. In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears......He reached down from on high
and took hold of me; he drew me out of deep waters. He rescued me from my powerful  enemy, from my foes, who were too strong for me.
They confronted me in the day of my disaster, but the LORD was my support. He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me.
So now it's 17 years later (2002), Jesus is my Lord & my relationship with God has 'not sunk' & never will because He is the Rock & my feet are secure in Him.
He will never leave me or forsake me & He allways keeps His promise.
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Mark Wadie ( DJ Absolute Abandon )
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